I have likely mentioned this before at one time or another, but I am petrified of wind. Of all kinds of storms to endure (on the prairies), none scare me more than a wind storm.
It is 12:20 am and as I was lying in bed tonight, hearing the wind moaning outside, I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep until it was over, so I thought I'd get up and do something... and here I am.
When I was a child, my Dad helped to instill a fear of wind (and, well, just about everything) in me. At the start of any storm, he would instruct me to remain in the basement - preferably in the tub or under the stairs - until the storm was over. I rarely listened, but I grew to have an excessive and unhealthy fear of wind. It has actually only been in the last few years that I've learned that dangerous winds are really not that common in our area of the world... but it scares me still.
Having a child in the house doesn't help. I could run downstairs and cocoon myself in the bathtub, but it would seem a little ridiculous to pack up my children and run downstairs at the first sign of wind... It also would only ensure that they would inherit the same fears.
So, although there is nothing at all I could do if the wind chose to 'blow my house down', I sit here as though on guard, trying to protect my family.
It's humbling, now that I'm thinking about it, to know how little in control I really am when it comes to so many things about my family. I can't stop the giant tree in our yard from falling into our daughter's bedroom. Even if I stood over her crib, I couldn't stop it... And yes, my head 'goes there' - all the time. It is only God who is in control of all things, and I think sometimes He allows storms like this to terrify me to remind me that I am not in control. He is in control.
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?"